I don't fucking understand my family .

You're not biased ?

YEAH RIGHT .

FUCK YOU .

AND YOUR FUCKING LIES AS WELL .

I can tell all of you are lying , there's no doubt to that .

I WANT SOMEONE TO HUG

I WANT A SHOULDER TO CRY ON .

A shoulder to cry on , that was something I never had because everyone thought I was fine , everyone thought I was strong , everyone thought that I would never break .

They thought I'd never cry .

Well, you're wrong .

I was never fine , i was never strong and I fucking broke into pieces .

When that day comes ,
Will I still be able to cope with the new life that I'll be leading ?
Will I adapt to the changes around me ?
Will I be able to overcome this large obstacle ?
Will I break down ?
Will that wall that I've build for the past years crumble ?
Will I still be able to show a true smile ?
Will I even be able to fake it like what I've done most of the time ?
Will I stay the same or just completely change ?
What will happen if I just break ?
What will I do then ?
Who will piece me back together ?
Can they do it ?

So many questions and yet there are no answers to it .
The clock is ticking ,
it's waiting for no one .
It's not going to wait for you ,
neither will it wait for me .
It'll carry on ticking and days will fly past me like a blur .

And when that day of judgment comes ,

I won't know what to do anymore .

Scars are like memories, and tattoos. When you fall, when your heart breaks, and when your best friend turns her back on you, it leaves a scar that can hurt every-time you think about it. It’s a memory that is stuck in your head. It’s in the past, but it comes back and bites. It’s a tattoo because it’s a memory that hurts, but doesn’t disappear. It never does. When you see it so vividly, you sometimes regret what led to the scar that is a memory that leaves an imprint in your life’s history.

It hard trying to be happy .
It's hard trying to smile when it's clear that I'm not .
It's hard trying to fight for a someone when she doesn't even want to solve the problem and prolongs it .
It's hard to carry on, moving forward when you don't have the energy to do so .

It's fucking hard .
And I hate it .

I can hear the whispers clearly and yet I try and block them out .

Today I stayed at tuition to accompany Ms Juwi ^^
Played Uno Stacko by myself like the weird person I am .
I wish I had someone to hug whenever I need one .



Thank you abang <3
No wonder I love you people so much .

Life is about falling – Living is about getting backup.


Days passing by ,
and soon it'll be 2011 .
The most difficult year of my life .
Because that's when everything will change .
I'll move house ,
I'll live separately from one of my parents ,
I need to study hard ,
never get distracted .
Stay happy .
Never cry .
Never show my weaknesses .
Yeah ,
That's a lot of crap to do next year .

OH AND GET MY MONEY BACK FROM SOMEONE .

YEAH .
A FUCK LOAD OF CRAP TO FUCKING DO .

And all I can do right now is face it ,
pass that obstacle ,
suck all the pain I feel
and most of all ,

FUCKING MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE .

mhm . a lot .

Chyeaaahhh .
Saw SE7EN today .
Hot piece of meat .

He was so damn cute can ?
Actually went there with Tricia , Shuqing and Clara and their friend but ended up pangseh-ing them with Trisha to walked around when we saw ANSON ! <3
With his friends , ALOT OF THEM . Hahha .
So hung out with Juni , Faith , Yuri , Claudia , Anson and Trisha . x3
They were damn fun to be with laaaaahhh .

IM STILL KINDA HIGH FROM SEEING SE7EN BEING DAMN CUTE AT THE LOBBY .
HAHAHAH .
KTHXBAI ~

Yup ...
For the music .


Kay , choir today .
Sian as usual .
Can't wait for my book to arrive , k ?
i want to start reading those science textbooks
and look through my maths textbooks .
So I'll know what'll happen next year .
ESPECIALLY FOR SCIENCE DAMMIT .
I have three science subjects to learn .
Gotta work hard .

Oh, it's 11pm already .
Happy 19th Kevin Woo ^^

Maybe you get alot of presents and love from KISS MEs all around the world :D

AAAAAAANDDD .

You , cheer up kkays ?
When you get back , we shall watch lepak lepak and spam pictures :)
ily ~