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And even though I tried, it all fell apart
God only gives us tests which we will one day be able to overcome. That is why someday your wounds will heal and the day will come when you will overcome your suffering. And when that happens, I want to be there to see you smile from the bottom of your heart.
- Mikage Celestine ; Kapitel 41
Challenges we face.
Wednesday 29 May 2013, 10:32 pm

Little men with little minds and little imaginations go through life in little ruts, 
smugly resisting all changes which would jar their little worlds.
 - Zig Ziglar


Some people just can't adapt to change. They always feel that everything's going to stay the same. The way they like it. Well, you're most definitely wrong, my friend. You should open up that little mind of yours and start thinking more. Stop staying in that little world of yours, thinking that's you're always right and never wrong. Newsflash, you're pissing everyone off with your stupidity. 

 At first, I pitied your because people started to stay away from you and stuff but after what I saw and heard with my own pair of eyes and ears, I now know why they're avoiding you.God has let us see a glimpse of your true colours and you know what? After that day, it started to show more and more and gosh, do I hate you even more now. To think that I'll see you for the next 3 years? Nightmare. My fuse is short when it comes to people like you. Really short. Be careful not to piss me off because I will scold you. I don't give a fuck if you're older than me. I will do it if it's necessary. Respect is earned, not given just because you feel that you deserve it.

 Well, that's done. Let's move on to a new topic.

 Sometimes I wonder why I chose this course. I barely know anything about IT and I definitely have no passion is IT at all. So what made me go into this course? I don't know either. Maybe it's the thought of having to go into engineering. I mean, there's amaths there guys. It's not fun. It's freaking stressful and that's why I'm glad I'm only taking cmaths right now. So, it was either Engineering or IT. Business was like waaaaaaaay out of my league and so was Humanities and Social Science. Don't even think about Applied Science. My science is horrible beyond words.

 Moving on, DCNK. I'm slowly warming up to this subject. I just feel like it's a hard module for me. CARC has been pretty ok so far but I'm only worried for my Full Adder and Parallel Adder. I blank out when questions pertaining to these two topics come out. 

 My mind becomes empty instantly.I haven't even started on my tutorials that are dues tomorrow. Please kill me because I don't think I'll even do it until tomorrow morning before I go to school (If I wake up earlier than usual which is kind of impossible). Good luck to me then. I'm such a procrastinator. 

 Maybe it's because I'm really tired these days. Like real tired.I usually don't find going to school hard but these days, it's beginning to feel like a chore. I hope it's just a passing phase. I need to snap out of this. Term Tests are next week. I should shut up and study now. Goodbye.



Good day
Saturday 25 May 2013, 11:10 pm

You're looking for something you can't find

If you give it up, you'll lose your mind

There's always something in your way

But what can you say, you're gonna have a good day

 - Good Day ; Click 5


Today was a fairly good day. Wished that little bunny slayer Ain a happy birthday on instagram, went back to sleep, woke up and read a few fanfics and then I felt that I should go out to study. So, I went out to study at the airport with Sab. Hehehe. Studied a little of CARC, refreshed my mind with some Cmaths 2 functions and ignored DCNK completely. Well, at least I got to snap a few shots with Sab. :3


I think it's time to trim my fringe. It's getting too long. Maybe soon. Maybe during the holidays, I don't know. Lets see how it goes. I'm going to bet that I'll be too lazy to go for a trim and my mum will nag at me to go for one. Hahahah. Curly Curly thick hair. Why are you so hard to maintain?

Change
Friday 24 May 2013, 12:07 am

"It is not terrifying to know sorrow.

Terrifying is to know you can't go back

to the happiness you could have."

 - Bleach (manga taglines)


When I look back at my days as a secondary school student, I start to think. Will I ever be as happy as I was back then? With no worries and sorrow? There's so many questions that's going on in my mind. How everything has affected me thus far... I wonder if it's possible to be as happy as I was back then. 

"Is it okay to be happy again?"
"What if this happiness doesn't last?"
"Will I fall back into the very same pit of sorrow?"
"Will I still have the energy to fight?"
"What if I don't make it out this time?"

So many questions and yet none has been answered. I don't know what's going to happen in the future. Nobody knows. We're not psychic. We can only face the present and look back at our past. All we can do is prepare for the future. The future with millions of possibilities, millions of choices.

I'm afraid. I'm afraid that I'll make the wrong choices. I'm afraid I'll be robbed from the happiness I so desperately cling onto. I don't want to go back to those days where I had to force a smile in front of everyone. I'm really happy with my life right now and I don't want it to change, but let's face the fact that changes are inevitable, be it good or bad. Something's bound to change.

And you know what? When the time comes, I just hope that I'll be able to move forward as I did back then.

Well, this definitely got me thinking. It's so weird that I think of such things so early in the morning. Something must be wrong with me. The lack of sleep maybe? Who knows eh.

Workload
Wednesday 22 May 2013, 8:26 pm

"Whenever I start looking at those documents, it makes me want to go out and chop something up, it's so irritating."  - Hyuuga on his paperwork


I continue to stare at e-quizzes, contemplating whether I should start doing them right now or just procrastinate until tomorrow. Pokemon or quiz. Obviously Pokemon wins. But which one is more important? E-quizzes of course. Well, my bad habits are returning. My bad habits of procrastination. Welcome back, my friend. It's nice seeing you again. I hope you leave soon.

A month has passed since the first day of school. I've met such lovely people, seniors, empire mates and classmates alike. I feel so blessed to have a great group of friends that I can lean on at any time. Working to the top together is better than trudging to end by myself. Screw the 'All man for himself' bullshit. What's the point of having a high GPA when nobody likes you since you're so stuck up? Ridiculous how some people think this way. Healthy competition is great, but not to the point where people start to hate you.

Well, I've decided to make a blog again. Let's hope I keep this thing alive, okay?